I woke up to catch a glimpse of your smile and realized how much i love you. I do not know if i have ever felt this way, or went to walking on this road; maybe i’ve forgotten about all these, about how it’s like being in love.
Maybe i’ve never been in love, but i saw you when i woke up alone this morning in my bed, i saw you beside me. I saw you smiling at me, and i grabbed the cold pillow and you hugged me and i reached your hand from my back and brought it to my lips and i almost fell into something, love maybe.
Am i in love? I do not know. I have no experience, i’m not the best of a lover, not the best of anything, never been the best of a thing or many. I’m not someone whom anyone is proud of but a person, smaller than everyone, shorter not because i lack of confidence, but juvenile, perhaps because i just escaped from something, my own shadow maybe.
Where was i all these while?
I find this new place a little strange, it feels safe like home when you’re around, and it sounds like complete silence when you’re not, i can only hear my own voice.
Voices that spoke to me, and wrote this note in my bed when i woke up minutes ago and saw you smiling at me. You were beautiful, nothing like these silly words of mine.
You were beautiful, nothing like the delayed emotions of mine.
Was i late? To love you beautiful.